So I felt this sudden need to test myself, a few hours ago. I wanted
to make sure my physical self which’s as inscrutable as my psyche is, was alive
and I wasn’t living in a dream or a world where the laws of physics don’t apply.
My primordial thought was to punch myself in the face, but after all the
beating I subjected the walls at work and home, my knuckles went sore and I
didn’t think it was a good idea to punch myself(I’m a rock now. I wouldn’t dare
punch myself eh!).
After a while, a
brilliant idea struck me at 3:40 am. I wanted to test myself physically. 10
minutes later, I was in my tracksuit, tying my shoe laces. Walked a kilometre
and reached mini-tank bund. The gates were open. I probably was the earliest
jogger at that time. The entire place was deserted. The trees threw and damp
and eerie feel to the place. I made a dash to the other end and back. I was
breathing heavily. Alright! I was breathing—check!
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| The entrance at 3:50 am |
Slamming my fists together whilst abhorring myself, I ran harder.
Faster. I reached the end in a few minutes. I could hear loud calls of the
Indian jungle Fowls. My receding cognition told me I could hear – check!!
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| The Lake... or whatever's left of it. |
When I raced back to the entry gate, I could feel a sharp stinging
sensation. My calves craved for rest. They knew I haven’t run this much in
months! I’d been living a lethargic, emotionally fulfilled life, an entire
quarter. In what seemed like comfort, I
deferred physical fitness; the result, my calves pulsating with pain... Well,
purpose solved.. I can feel physical pain—Check!
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| I have no clue what flowers these were, but the smell was over-whelming :) |
I sat down on the
grass and there entered the first jogger at 4:30. Walking seemed like a task. If he were his own boss, I bet he’d be pay
himself to just walk! On a more serious note he didn’t seem like someone who’s
been deferring physical fitness. I loathed myself, got up and walked back home.
Didn’t feel like summer to me. The early sun-rise wasn’t early until 5:20. So,
I can see..
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| An unclear picture of an ICICI ATM when I was 'on the run'(from myself). |
Relispray, here I come!! What a loser!
~~Peace
R.o.H.i.T....
