Tuesday, September 22, 2009

You never undersood me..... Never will....

Looking back on the shortest friendship I ever had,

I cannot help but feel hopeless and sad.

Truly wishing we could have made it work.
The whole thing left me feeling like a jerk.

The picture you have of me, not corrected.
You turned away, left me feeling neglected.

I didn't get a chance to say what I feel inside.
Not the kind to dwell on self pity or the need to hide.

Unable to reach you, you went to where you feel safe,
The things you told me, I will take them to my grave,
along with so many other life ' s stories I carry with me
Hoping one day you will change your mind, friends is what I want to be.

Sorry for being imperfect, I know you are lonely and so am I
but pushing is not my style, so I guess this means you made me call it a good BYE.

To the person who could have been my best friend for life.
Who could have saved me from the edge of the knife

To the person who liked Ice.
Who made me anything but Wise.

To the person who tried less than a few times.
Who explained sometimes, each in a Lie.
Who made me ask "Why me?".... WHY?

To the person who could have helped ME be MYSELF.
Who could have let me be human, instead of a toy on the shelf

To the person who played with my life, like a game of chess.
Who could have actually saved me from all this mess.....

To the person who never understood me.
Who will never understand me.

To the person who once ignored.
Who toyed with my emotions whenever bored.

NEVER come back into my life, for the trust now is nothing but a heap of rust.
I held our friendship close to my heart, you now leave me torn apart.
I don't wish for a time machine, cos all that happened taught me a lesson a million books couldn't have.
You could have sacrificed a little from your selfishness, a little from your desires, a little from your wants, and we still could have been friends belonging to the best league.
It hurts when I look back at the past and find my sacrifice all in vain.
Our relation is now, nothing but memories flushed down the drain.

I can curse, but that's not me. That' s not the person you knew. That's not the person you made friends with. That's not the person who loved to live life. Who loved to see smiles. Though the Smiles have vanished, the memory chip in me still hasn't gone to the extent of cursing you.
Take care my friend. All the best with all your future endeavours, challenges and relations. Good bye Champ...

I have for long wanted to share this with someone. To let a little burden off my eyes and my mind. I don't know you, the person who is reading this and you don't know the person I'm writing this for. This was just an attempt to relieve myself at least a little from all the agony........


vineet said...

wat a start d 1st..i havent gone thru rest bt soon will go thru that

RoHiT said...

Thanks Vineet

Anonymous said...

looks lyk u had a bad tym wid a break up from ur best friend. I understand how it feels. very nice blog. u let ur heart out in dis piece of writing..v very nicee :)

RoHiT said...

Thank you Dharmini.

devilzangel said...

gosh u blue bakra n u grossy green :P alienomaniac :p crapo tht ws sum wonderfully fantastical freakomaniacly fantabulous things uv written n d way uv written :D gosh neva thut id b complimentin u huh >:P lolll :P but gawdddddddd tht ws amazin :O

RoHiT said...

Thanks booha.. :)...complementin' me doesn't quite suit you but I knw I deserve one :P...

Sorcerer said... are hurt..
it shows in this writeup.
wow! nice one mate

RoHiT said...

@ Sorcerer---> I was hurt :)...all in the past.... Thanks for the comment, Sorc.

karthik said...

Why so morose, dude? Shit happens all the time.
But I do understand the difficulty while going through such phase.. Wish you luck...
And about write-up, very well expressed, and very well presented. Liked it very much.
Keep writing!

asmita said...

hey dats so well expressed yaar!
n as i alrdy told u...m so happy u got over it...WAY TO GO BB!!!...keep rockin like u always do...:D

CRD said...

I hope she reads this...whether she reconciles with you or not is another matter altogether


RoHiT said...

@ Karthik--> I ain't morose anymore dude.. I knw Shit happens all the time but you have to keep the shit ON, till its wiped off... I wiped it off now.. so all fine shine :)... Thanks for the wonderful comments :)

@ Astima-->Thanks gal... and yeah "Way to go!!" :P.. You take care and Regards to Ramu kaka

@ CRD--> I didn't mention if the person I'm referring to is a HE or a SHE :O.... and yes that person has already read this... Or So I think :D...
Thanks for your comment :)

Gopsay said...

The first thing I thought of after reading half of the poem: "Wow! Fantastic.."
Now, having read the poem fully, I would like to tell you that I am VERY IMPRESSED by this poem. I think you are writing this more in disgust than in actual pain. It is well reflected!

Awesome work.. Gr8 job! Keep going. I think this is just the start of many things to come! Wish you good luck

Gopsay said...

the first post of your blog I read first, I think was SHADOW.... which was really nice, just as similar to this post!

Gud job!

RoHiT said...

@ Gopsay--> Thanks for yaa awesome comments mate :).. yeah the most recent one is "Shadow: Does it Haunt or Does it Follow"

Garima Bhatia said...

Very expressive..It is really important to spell your emotions in spoken words or on paper..

Liked it..Tc

Ashes_of_roses said...

Its beautiful! different sides of the same emotion!! Its really beautiful

RoHiT Iyer said...

@ Annapurna--> Thank you :)
@ Garima-->Thanks Hyd pal :)

Rajendra Raikwar said...

nice one....